8.20.2012

Warning

I battle the demon damn near every night
The morning alarm says I'm sober
I don't believe it
Then, the guilt sets in
Evidence is on the face I see in the mirror
Bruised nose from the toilet
My glasses caked with something not worth celebrating
Something not worth remembering
But I do

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You know what, I'm sick of this shit
I admit, I regret I allowed myself
To be inflected with this sickness
But guilt isn't such a bad thing
It's the acknowledgement of wrong doing
They say ignorance is the best defense
I feel acceptance is the best offense
Accept the guilt, learn from it & move right on along

The ice is melting
The cup is sweating
The whiskey is screaming
It's been willingly abandoned

Rest assured up above, Father
I hear you

23 comments:

  1. WoW! We had a bit of a wait for this one - but it was worth it! Exquisite ♦

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  2. It has been awhile - too long, actually. Thank you so much, Helena.

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  3. A potent weave, wordbender! Brings to mind a good many folks I've met on my journey thus far...and if I push my mind hard enough,I just my share similar memories which I refuse to own. And of course, a very warm welcome back to OpenLinkNight

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    1. We must acknowledge even those memories we don't want to remember. If we don't, how can we move past them?

      Thank you for stopping by, Natasha. It's great to be back.

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  4. Very good. Powerful and touching.

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    1. Thank you for the read & visit, Kristina.

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  5. Accept the guilt, learn from it & move right on along...think that's an excellent way to handle it...and glad you hear his voice..

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  6. They say ignorance is the best defense
    I feel acceptance is the best offense
    Accept the guilt, learn from it & move right on along

    wow really like that...and the ackowledgement as well in the end that you hear....really powerful piece...

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  7. "Accept the guilt, learn from it & move right on along" Learning from it, now that is the difficult part. Thought provoking. Well penned!

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  8. "there is nothing like
    the warm quilt of guilt to make a man
    drink himself cold"

    the first stanza in my next poem . . .
    your write inspire me!

    there is no bigger compliment!!!

    except maybe . . .

    "Your schlong is gargantuan" . . .



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    1. Oh, man, too funny. I like that stanza a lot! Glad you could take something away from my poem, Arron.

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  9. your write also made me forget the (inspire) D . . .

    DOH! :D

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  10. I grew up in an alcoholic household so this one burned. Very well done.

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  11. As a teen I know those days (nights) and morning after all too well. The head banging headache the next day was never worth it really.
    Very graphic write and, lessons learned too by the sound of it.
    Thanks for the visit :)

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    1. Lessons are always being learned. Thank YOU for the visit.

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  12. Excellent write, Alex. Very thought-provoking.

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  13. Hard write--but so thoughtfully done---Just an excellent write--

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